Well I guess I have been on the journey to get this business going. I have to say its pretty tough when you're poor. lol. But it seriously is though.
You do a lot of hoping ....hoping that things work out-that the hard work pays off-that something will come out of all this chaos.
Ya never know.
What I am learning about myself is that My dream for film isn't a big a dream of mine like I originally thought. I have been chasing the film and video dream of so long...achieved some success.. I think me pursuing it has become a habit? I don't really know. I def enjoy a day that is on set or a day when I'm working on my own project. It would def be my top choice of industry to keep working in.
BUT...
I would love to have my photos in people's homes. I want people to love it the way I do. Maybe thats a pipe dream. Maybe not.
I have so much to do. I think it has been about ... maybe a year since I started to conceptualize this idea of a business.
"Mom, I think I really want to sell my photos for a living" But than after telling her she talked about how I should do weddings. NO!!! I hate that!!! I refuse to do that.
Well Maybe this was just a "this was what was on my mind" blog. All I know is I am bit torn on how to make this business succeed. My mother says cut my loses move back to Buffalo and just start there. If I am there I cant do film stuff really(not paid that is) and I'm stuck being a barista (if they will hire me) or like some crazy job I'll hate. Back to lifeguarding? Bartending? how about a new bank job. I think I would shot myself or someone if I ended up in a cubicle 8 hours a day.
While in NYC I do like being a barista. I think I am addicted to this coffee frenzy...or just the art of coffee. I find myself wanting to learn more about coffee, and wanting to become a better barista. I kinda don't wanna give up this barista thing. Also when film work doesn't come around Its a good skill to have to fall back on. lol.
I just wanna get to the point where I am ready for a art festival. I am gonna be super excited when that happens.
well I guess Im gonna keep truckin. lol.
